Glum

Yesterday, after Andi died, I changed the background image on my computer to the one seen here. I love that shot of her, with those beautiful, soulful eyes, but I wasn’t quite ready when I woke my computer this morning, and she suddenly appeared, looking at me like she needed something.

It’s hard to not keep turning over all that I did, all that I should have done, all that I did not do in the past few weeks, even in the past three-and-a-half years since Andi became part of our family. I know that it will take time, and I know that I need to give myself that time, but still.

Happiness is a willed thing; therefore we choose to let Jesus be our joy, our confidence, and to ignore our poor little fumbles.

—Sister Wendy Beckett